wierd

It's strange when i have a question about why
one of God's laws are bad a get an answer ex: Ones i was wondering why would God car if someone
cut themself on purpuse? then i had a day dream that i was going to visit my aunt 6hours away my parents dropped me of and she saw cutts on my arms and yelled at me "Get out of my house my, you are not my neis! NO one hurts my neis (then i realized thats what God would do and i had nowair to go after i was 6hours away!Well heaven is much further) and other questions where answered too...

And anothr time i was worried what if i not saved what if im just beig desieved by Satan?
How do i kno God loves me or Jesus loves me?
How do i know if a man(or Jesus) likes me, i can like him all i want but if he dosent like me there is no point,(no hope)...? then i went online to see if emotions rely come from our feet
and i clicked some think and i said stuff about God's love, this was a few minutes after these thoughts. its said stuff like :

Can a woman forget her nursing child, and have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, but I will not forget you. Behold, I have inscribed you on the palms of my hands..." Is. 49:15-16a

How can I give you up, O Ephraim? How can I surrender you, O Israel? How can I make you like Admah? How can I treat you like Zeboiim? My heart is turned over within Me, All My compassions are kindled."

The seventy returned with joy, saying, 'Lord, even the demons are subject to us in Your name.'
And He said to them, 'I was watching Satan fall from heaven like lightning... Nevertheless do not rejoice in this, that the spirits are subject to you, but rejoice that your names are recorded in heaven.' At that very time He rejoiced greatly in the Holy Spirit, and said, 'I praise You, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth..." Luke 10:17-18,20-21a

He will exult over you with joy, He will
be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy." ...

I dont know what that had to do with emotions comming from feet but it cheered me up!

And i always kinda believed God did exist...
At first i only came to him for selfish prayers
Then i became a satan worshiper i watched i video i thought had to do ith satan but atually it said stuff abot Jesus Now i think im i christian, i hope im one...
But eather way its not if i want to go to heaven or escape hell its do i want God...satan wants heaven he just dosent want GOd and laws... ANd we where made to glorify him OUR LORD!

How can i be certain if the magority of people go to hell? Even when they know that jesus died cause even the devil knows Jesus died it takes more than that... and its not just Jesus died its he tould all of his own fathers anger... My dad scares me when hes mad!

i havequestions too

why is satan evil theirs just no point its not good for me, you, Jesus, God not for the cow menuar pille even him(hell for him) like if their was a bus and someone was kiking the bus driver and all the pasengers knowing that at the end of the bus ride he would go to jail when he could just have sat down and stayed quiet and win a aswome castel...

and ones i had a dream, everyone was building something in my class for a spcial persone their was nothing left for me too make so i just helped everyone make what where making, then and a few hours later i felt i did not do much and i only helped everyone then i found out they wheir

giving it to God and Jesus then i felt really bad thinking i wish their was something i could have made, the next day everyone got a gift back from God and Jesus other than me i felt unloved but "i told myself snap out you did not make anythink for them, why get something back" then the day after (i forget who found it) but someone found out their was my gift in the cobort with a cake and a new type of animal that was small enought to put in my hand, i felt bad for not finding it, and feeding it, it was hungry, and i felt like i did not deserve it and why did i get more then everyone i did not make anything...I only helped do u know what this means?